Hey first time i tried i enjoyed it and cummeed great but I felt really bad after, like i had gone gay and didnt want to be. I used the middle finger for the first time.  Afterwards I never wanted to do it again just because i was scared of being gay. Now i use a  squeezy toy made of foam what people use for stress, its a small guiness bottle made of foam.  I tie elastic bands around it to make it thinner (its about two thumbs thick) then stick it in a food prep glove an lube up with baby oil.  It doesn't get the feeling i imagined but you cum really strong.  I always take a shit first and then go in the shower with a rubber glove on and stick my finger up there to clean out excess stuff, sometimes i put the shower on blast and squirt water up too.  I don't feel bad anymore and am a comfortable straight male, 17.  I know im not gay because i like women and couldnt have a rerlationship with a male.  I occasionally glance at gay porn (even tho im underage lol) but only wank to straight.  I fantasise about having sex with a woman while a black guy does me from behind but thats all it is... a fantasy i started thinking i was bi but bisexuals want relationships with both, i just have an occasional fantasy about gettin anal.  Anyway does anyone know of any good house hold anal toys?  is baby oil a safe anal lube for toys? how can i get more pleasure from it? thanks